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March
Well its another day and I am still single. I don't even have that regular dick I want. I am making more videos though. I don't know what to do though.
I want a good man, but it seems like its hard to find a good man. I just want at least a good friend, but friends are hard to find. You know strait girls
have guys spend the night all the time, but the only guys that want to spend the night with me are guys I am not attracted to. I want a good friend. I can
deal without a man because I want my career. I wish I was one of those people that do not crave a man in my life. My friend went on a trip with his wife
and I was so scared. He is a good friend and lover. Yes its another Steve. I have dated so many Steves its crazy, but back on the subject. He was gone
so long and I was so scared for him and his wife. Well they are ok, and I am so glad. I hate I can't turn over sometimes and he not there. I used to cry
his name out when I woke up, just like I did my first boyfriend Steve.
The Salesman Kenny came over and he pounded me so so so good. Man I never though I would love a fat dick like his, but damn that dick feels good as
fuck. I will tell you something private though. When he came over I had just woke up like 30 minutes before and I needed deodorant. It was so bad he
kept my hands down, but he did not stop cause my ass was feeling good. I don't know whats wrong with me, I usually take care of myself more, like
shower when I first wake up, but who knows. I always shower after sex, but lately I am not taking care of myself like
April
Well its a new month and things are still boring here in Philly. I did meet two new tgirls. One is Diana and the other is this tgirl named Tatiana. They
are both so sweet and nice. I really like them as friends. Tatiana is so skinny. She gets lots of attention. She is that out going party type. She is really
cool. I think this month I am getting more jealous. For some reason all the guys are clinging to those tgirls instead of me. I don't know whats wrong
with me and what I do that men not liking. I mean I am the slut since I moved up here and men are still going for the other girls. I don't know whats
wrong with me, maybe its my look.
Kenny has pissed me off, he is constantly telling me that he is looking at picture of Tia and jacking off. I am sick of that. I wonder why all these guys
that fuck me want to fuck my friends. Now I got Tatiana in the picture and guys are wanting to fuck her. I am always left on the side.
I am going to see Steve so much and he has been very good to me in the past. He has no time for me at all anymore. I hate that. I am sick of him not
having time for me. I only get to see him when I go to the his job. I am sick of that. I want a good man to fuck, I am horny for some regular dick, and
these sorry ass guys keep trying to fuck every tgirl they get their hands on. Why can't I have one fuck friend, that is really fucking me mostly, you know.
I want a guy to beat this ass up and its not happening. I don't feel like fucking a guy in the ass at all unless he is making a movie with me. I dumped all
the police guys. They all bend over before anything happens.
This guy that I really like you can call him Charl2 is bothering me about a 3 some. Not only that, after bothering me and getting on my nerves, he calls
Tia on his own and hit on her. I am not mad at her. She was not interested in him. She dated him and they took a shower together and he ate her ass
out. I love Tia to death but even though I have more sex than her, the guy are trying to hit her so bad. She is jealous of Tatiana cause she so skinny and
I am sick of guys hitting on her cause she Asian. I would want a guy totally into me. I know right now I don't want a relationship, but damn for a guy to
fuck me then fuck my friend, it makes me feel like I am escorting again. I see why girls charge for money. I almost want to start escorting again. Guys
are using me.
The other Vicki has contacted me. She is doing ok. Her father died and she is really having a hard time dealing with life and he is not in it. Kim is
taking care of her father right now. She is a very good friend. She took me to a club though and it did not work out right. We first went over these
people house, and the people where nice. Then we had to go to this club. The club was far. So the girl we went to the club with was telling people
how Kim and I were friends. I was like what? I was so pissed off about that, but then I said well I moved up here to be my true self. Real girls
always want to point us out. Well some guy was getting mad saying, "That thing is looking at me, I can't stand things like that!" I was so pissed cause I
know he was talking about me. I was mad as hell. So I wanted to leave. Kim and the girl Pat, where like come back, have a good time. So I stayed
with the drama, then all over a sudden this Spanish guy was hitting on allot of tgirls. He was just horny. So he hit on everyone. I was so pissed. I
dealth with it. So Kim took they guy and through him on me. I was like , "Stop it Kim." You know I would end up fucking him as soon as possible.
Kim just kept pushing him on me. So I talked to him, then when I said I was going outside with him, Kim like told the girl Pat that I am leaving and the
boy is going to rob me. So then Pat told everyone at the club what happened. So now they kicked the boy out the club. Well that did stop me from
having sex with him. I was so mad. So this is how its going so far in April.
This month, Dee and Dora are not longer friends of mine. I am so through with them. Professionally, they are ok, but as friends they are not, so I will
not be hanging with them again. My jealous side is really growing right now. My friends for Louisiana had to send me money to help me with bills
this month. I should have not left Louisiana.
May 2009
Well this month is really weird. Some good things actually happened. Well it looks like I am getting help this month for my personality disorder and I
am meeting new guys that are helping me slow down my sex drive. My depression was great this month. I am still not working like I should, cause I
am so depressed. I don't know what to do about that. I also want to start doing more things, but its not working out that way. I want true love, but my
other personalities are taking over. I did the candle trick this month. I burned the candle and let it drain my energy. The candle burnt out. I think I am
over the amount of spiritual energy. I don't know what to do. That Turkey guy got in contact with me, I told him I am never planning on have sex with
him after he got with my friend Tia. Another guy Kenny tried to sleep with Tia this month too. Another friend Normal told me I was very plain. I
know I am plain, but it hurts when guys tell me that. I know I am not plastic, but still you got to love me.
Well I actually fucked with Kenny again. I am back friends with that sorry ass charl. I am still mad at him for fucking with Tia, even though they did
not have sex, they did allot of other stuff, like he licked her ass and all that. I was so pissed off at that. This guy I know named Ad is now fucking
with Tia, she fucked his ass so good, he don't know what to do. She is more versatile than me. I think these men can't be with just one girl. Allot of
guys see Tia and she don't hear from them again. I don't know what to say about these guys. This panish guy named Cisco wants to start having a
relationship with me but he works all the time. I mean like 6 days a week. The only day we have together is Sunday and he has to learn more English,
while at the same time I am learning spanish.
Well I am finally dating. I have a new friend. He is a good man. I like him. He normally only dates Asian tgirls. Well he is short and cute, at least to
me, Tia says he is too short. I really like him, but I don't know whats is up with us. I don't know where we are going. I know I should talk to him
though.
June
Well my mom is tripping with me. I want to move and the landlord wants to renew my lease. I do not like it in Philly, no one likes me here. I don't
have many friends at all. I should move I think. I am horny all the time just like in Baton Rouge. I want sex, but not as bad as I used to. I am going to
pray for my sex drive to slow down. No, wait, I need my sex drive to do cam shows. I am looking for jobs right now. My disability might stop soon,
so who knows what will happen. I hate being like this.
Well this month, I got to decide if I am going to renew my lease. I don't know what to do, cause I know I want to move. I have not made the decision
yet. I just want to really get back a little south, but I heard its so hot, its crazy. I still don't totally like it here, but I am a little more content. At least in
Louisiana I had company and made some friends. I am hooked on AVON again. That makes me happy. I got a new servant lately. He sent me 50
bucks to show he wants to be my servant. I like that. I love to control someone. My site www.safesextour.com is having problems. We have to move
the site to another server. I don't know what to do.
Dating is not going so great either. I had some really great days one way, but then its really bad on another. I dated an African, but he does not have a
care and he stays kind of far away, so thats out of the question. I can't afford the gas. I am not doing well with food right now. I am only buying junk
food and that is not good. I will have to work on eating better. I dated a Vegetarian and he was so so sweet, such a gentleman. He got mad cause I did
not give him that much attention. I should have paid more attention to him. I dated an engineer and we made a video together. He was so sexy, but so
freak, and a real bottom.
July
Well this month, I am still doing therapy. Everything is working out great. I am taking voice lessons in Philly now from a tgirl named Lisa. She is
very strict and punctual, but she is cool. I hope this helps. I am working on promoting my music and making things happen for me. This is the first
time I feel that my sex drive has slowed down. I am working allot and don't have time to sit up and worry about having sex all the time. I am working
on the sites more, so thats good. I like to promote and do different things to make the sites better. I like to keep my online diary up today, but
sometimes it does not go that way. I am still single, but I met this nice African student that is trying to spend more time with me but I don't know if we
will be a match. He is a very good guy nice and sweet.
August
Well this month is really slow and boring. All I do is work. I am making move videos on youtube, and doing my thing as usual, but nothing else is
really going on. Adora and Dynasty are back friends with me so that is cool. I think this month I am starting to love life more.
Well its another day and I am still single. I don't even have that regular dick I want. I am making more videos though. I don't know what to do though.
I want a good man, but it seems like its hard to find a good man. I just want at least a good friend, but friends are hard to find. You know strait girls
have guys spend the night all the time, but the only guys that want to spend the night with me are guys I am not attracted to. I want a good friend. I can
deal without a man because I want my career. I wish I was one of those people that do not crave a man in my life. My friend went on a trip with his wife
and I was so scared. He is a good friend and lover. Yes its another Steve. I have dated so many Steves its crazy, but back on the subject. He was gone
so long and I was so scared for him and his wife. Well they are ok, and I am so glad. I hate I can't turn over sometimes and he not there. I used to cry
his name out when I woke up, just like I did my first boyfriend Steve.
The Salesman Kenny came over and he pounded me so so so good. Man I never though I would love a fat dick like his, but damn that dick feels good as
fuck. I will tell you something private though. When he came over I had just woke up like 30 minutes before and I needed deodorant. It was so bad he
kept my hands down, but he did not stop cause my ass was feeling good. I don't know whats wrong with me, I usually take care of myself more, like
shower when I first wake up, but who knows. I always shower after sex, but lately I am not taking care of myself like
April
Well its a new month and things are still boring here in Philly. I did meet two new tgirls. One is Diana and the other is this tgirl named Tatiana. They
are both so sweet and nice. I really like them as friends. Tatiana is so skinny. She gets lots of attention. She is that out going party type. She is really
cool. I think this month I am getting more jealous. For some reason all the guys are clinging to those tgirls instead of me. I don't know whats wrong
with me and what I do that men not liking. I mean I am the slut since I moved up here and men are still going for the other girls. I don't know whats
wrong with me, maybe its my look.
Kenny has pissed me off, he is constantly telling me that he is looking at picture of Tia and jacking off. I am sick of that. I wonder why all these guys
that fuck me want to fuck my friends. Now I got Tatiana in the picture and guys are wanting to fuck her. I am always left on the side.
I am going to see Steve so much and he has been very good to me in the past. He has no time for me at all anymore. I hate that. I am sick of him not
having time for me. I only get to see him when I go to the his job. I am sick of that. I want a good man to fuck, I am horny for some regular dick, and
these sorry ass guys keep trying to fuck every tgirl they get their hands on. Why can't I have one fuck friend, that is really fucking me mostly, you know.
I want a guy to beat this ass up and its not happening. I don't feel like fucking a guy in the ass at all unless he is making a movie with me. I dumped all
the police guys. They all bend over before anything happens.
This guy that I really like you can call him Charl2 is bothering me about a 3 some. Not only that, after bothering me and getting on my nerves, he calls
Tia on his own and hit on her. I am not mad at her. She was not interested in him. She dated him and they took a shower together and he ate her ass
out. I love Tia to death but even though I have more sex than her, the guy are trying to hit her so bad. She is jealous of Tatiana cause she so skinny and
I am sick of guys hitting on her cause she Asian. I would want a guy totally into me. I know right now I don't want a relationship, but damn for a guy to
fuck me then fuck my friend, it makes me feel like I am escorting again. I see why girls charge for money. I almost want to start escorting again. Guys
are using me.
The other Vicki has contacted me. She is doing ok. Her father died and she is really having a hard time dealing with life and he is not in it. Kim is
taking care of her father right now. She is a very good friend. She took me to a club though and it did not work out right. We first went over these
people house, and the people where nice. Then we had to go to this club. The club was far. So the girl we went to the club with was telling people
how Kim and I were friends. I was like what? I was so pissed off about that, but then I said well I moved up here to be my true self. Real girls
always want to point us out. Well some guy was getting mad saying, "That thing is looking at me, I can't stand things like that!" I was so pissed cause I
know he was talking about me. I was mad as hell. So I wanted to leave. Kim and the girl Pat, where like come back, have a good time. So I stayed
with the drama, then all over a sudden this Spanish guy was hitting on allot of tgirls. He was just horny. So he hit on everyone. I was so pissed. I
dealth with it. So Kim took they guy and through him on me. I was like , "Stop it Kim." You know I would end up fucking him as soon as possible.
Kim just kept pushing him on me. So I talked to him, then when I said I was going outside with him, Kim like told the girl Pat that I am leaving and the
boy is going to rob me. So then Pat told everyone at the club what happened. So now they kicked the boy out the club. Well that did stop me from
having sex with him. I was so mad. So this is how its going so far in April.
This month, Dee and Dora are not longer friends of mine. I am so through with them. Professionally, they are ok, but as friends they are not, so I will
not be hanging with them again. My jealous side is really growing right now. My friends for Louisiana had to send me money to help me with bills
this month. I should have not left Louisiana.
May 2009
Well this month is really weird. Some good things actually happened. Well it looks like I am getting help this month for my personality disorder and I
am meeting new guys that are helping me slow down my sex drive. My depression was great this month. I am still not working like I should, cause I
am so depressed. I don't know what to do about that. I also want to start doing more things, but its not working out that way. I want true love, but my
other personalities are taking over. I did the candle trick this month. I burned the candle and let it drain my energy. The candle burnt out. I think I am
over the amount of spiritual energy. I don't know what to do. That Turkey guy got in contact with me, I told him I am never planning on have sex with
him after he got with my friend Tia. Another guy Kenny tried to sleep with Tia this month too. Another friend Normal told me I was very plain. I
know I am plain, but it hurts when guys tell me that. I know I am not plastic, but still you got to love me.
Well I actually fucked with Kenny again. I am back friends with that sorry ass charl. I am still mad at him for fucking with Tia, even though they did
not have sex, they did allot of other stuff, like he licked her ass and all that. I was so pissed off at that. This guy I know named Ad is now fucking
with Tia, she fucked his ass so good, he don't know what to do. She is more versatile than me. I think these men can't be with just one girl. Allot of
guys see Tia and she don't hear from them again. I don't know what to say about these guys. This panish guy named Cisco wants to start having a
relationship with me but he works all the time. I mean like 6 days a week. The only day we have together is Sunday and he has to learn more English,
while at the same time I am learning spanish.
Well I am finally dating. I have a new friend. He is a good man. I like him. He normally only dates Asian tgirls. Well he is short and cute, at least to
me, Tia says he is too short. I really like him, but I don't know whats is up with us. I don't know where we are going. I know I should talk to him
though.
June
Well my mom is tripping with me. I want to move and the landlord wants to renew my lease. I do not like it in Philly, no one likes me here. I don't
have many friends at all. I should move I think. I am horny all the time just like in Baton Rouge. I want sex, but not as bad as I used to. I am going to
pray for my sex drive to slow down. No, wait, I need my sex drive to do cam shows. I am looking for jobs right now. My disability might stop soon,
so who knows what will happen. I hate being like this.
Well this month, I got to decide if I am going to renew my lease. I don't know what to do, cause I know I want to move. I have not made the decision
yet. I just want to really get back a little south, but I heard its so hot, its crazy. I still don't totally like it here, but I am a little more content. At least in
Louisiana I had company and made some friends. I am hooked on AVON again. That makes me happy. I got a new servant lately. He sent me 50
bucks to show he wants to be my servant. I like that. I love to control someone. My site www.safesextour.com is having problems. We have to move
the site to another server. I don't know what to do.
Dating is not going so great either. I had some really great days one way, but then its really bad on another. I dated an African, but he does not have a
care and he stays kind of far away, so thats out of the question. I can't afford the gas. I am not doing well with food right now. I am only buying junk
food and that is not good. I will have to work on eating better. I dated a Vegetarian and he was so so sweet, such a gentleman. He got mad cause I did
not give him that much attention. I should have paid more attention to him. I dated an engineer and we made a video together. He was so sexy, but so
freak, and a real bottom.
July
Well this month, I am still doing therapy. Everything is working out great. I am taking voice lessons in Philly now from a tgirl named Lisa. She is
very strict and punctual, but she is cool. I hope this helps. I am working on promoting my music and making things happen for me. This is the first
time I feel that my sex drive has slowed down. I am working allot and don't have time to sit up and worry about having sex all the time. I am working
on the sites more, so thats good. I like to promote and do different things to make the sites better. I like to keep my online diary up today, but
sometimes it does not go that way. I am still single, but I met this nice African student that is trying to spend more time with me but I don't know if we
will be a match. He is a very good guy nice and sweet.
August
Well this month is really slow and boring. All I do is work. I am making move videos on youtube, and doing my thing as usual, but nothing else is
really going on. Adora and Dynasty are back friends with me so that is cool. I think this month I am starting to love life more.